HAHAHAHA

so my mom was going through some things in her room when she came across a notebook of mine. i was looking through it and it was from my freshman year in high school yeah almost 9 fucking years ago. well anyways i was looking through it and found the funniest shit i have ever written in my life. i was tripping out when i read it...so i though i would share with u guys so here we go.

Female Player

You call yourself a player cause it seems you've played a few.
You didn't seem to realize that it was me playing you.
It's true you were good at your game and became a winner.
But compared to me your still a beginner.
There's still lots of learning and you ain't shit yet.
And if you don't give a fuck then why you so upset?
Although you tried to play me things didn't end up your way.
Cause now you're on your knees begging me to stay.
How does it feel to lose?
How does it feel to be a failure?
How does it feel to be played by me a Female Player?

hahahaha holy shit that was awesome & hilarious!!! plz do not butcher me i was only 14 at the time and apparently very angry lol.
oh and i either wrote this other thing or copied it from somewhere but all i want to know is WTF was i smoking as a freshman lol. here it goes.

One bright day in the middle of the night, two dead boys got up to fight. Back to back they faced each other, drew their swords and shot each other. A deaf policeman heard this noise and went and shot the two dead boys. If u don't beleive this lie it is true, just ask the blind guy he saw it too.

yeah what can i say i'm special lol!!!

bye, peace out, deuces!!! xoxo

what a night!!!!!!!

hey blog world!!! well its 7:43 am and i am still up with no plans of sleeping anytime soon. today i finally graduate from college its about fucking time lol. even though today is a good day it also is bittersweet seeing that its the anniversary of my 2 friends death. they died 4 years ago on Mother's Day. it was by far one of the worst days of my life. but they are in a better place looking down on us and watching over us. love you alejandra & sandra. so back to tonight...all i can say is WOW. it was such a interesting night on twitter. i'm sorry but i can't get over it. there was literally penis's coming outta all directions. it was the most shocking thing i had ever seen & the fact that i was drunk didn't help too much lol. but yeah once again another night i will never 4get...why is it that we can't escape these random things. oy vey lol. but yeah back to grad night FINALLY YAY!!! i'm so proud of myself i'm the last of my parents babies to graduate and make them proud. there baby girl did it lol. so now i have to go to rehearsal @ 10 am, then come home nap for a couple of hours & then head to graduation. and after graduation go to a bar and GET FUCKED UP!!!! i wish nina & jo were here with me to help me celebrate =( but i know they will be there in spirit. hmm...i wonder what i'll be coming home to tonight more penis's or something new lol. i guess we shall see lol. ay dios mio i have the biggest headache right now...i wonder why??? hmm it could be cause i might be getting over my drunkenness or maybe just maybe the fact that i haven't slept. oh well!!! i wish i could keep rambling but i have nothing else to say!!! ill talk to you all later!!! smooches peace out deuces!!!!!!! xoxo

p.s. if some of this doesn't make sense remember no sleep & getting over my drunkenness lol!!! =D

VENTING!!!!

goodness gracious i swear i'm gonna explode. i hate when people piss me off. i mean finally things are starting to turn for me and someone wants to remind me of how miserable i've been the last year & 1/2. seriously wtf. don't u think if i had what u wanted i would have fucking helped u already. do you honestly think i wanna see you guys fucking struggling like you are? give me a fucking break. stop reminding me of how shitty things have been for me and be happy that i'm finally starting to see things go my way. i know i probably could have changed things a while ago but after trying for so long i gave up and lost any hopes i had. now i'm finally seeing that i'm going back to the old me. give me a break. man i was so happy and then boom i got pissed in .001 sec. now i have a fucking headache and a pain on my collar bone wtf. oy vey i think im gonna take a nap & calm myself if not i'm gonna go crazy. peace out!!! deuces!!!

German Boys

so a quick lil blog b4 heading off to bed...yes i know it's 4 am but for aw this is normal. so anyways last night jo & i came across cinema bizarre...now we have known about them for awhile but really didn't pay them any mind. so yesterday we were cb snooping and at first we were like wtf omg they all look like girls...what is going on. then we went on youtube saw some videos and were like ok music isn't bad. and then we went on their myspace & yu's myspace. holy shit after seeing yu shirtless & sweaty & his abs look all nice we fell in love lol. so we came to the conclusion that all the hot guys are in germany. i mean hello u have ballack the soccer player, tokio hotel need i say more & now yu from cb its like a droolfest. so aw in the near future will be moving to Hamburg, Germany where we will meet either TH or Yu and live happily ever after. The End lol.

p.s. we can dream can't we...btw TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY WOOHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Killing some time...........

so i'm here sitting in my room wondering if i'm gonna go out or not cause i haven't heard from my friend yet. and also i have a feeling neither one of my sisters are coming online today. so that leaves me all alone tonight :( boo! right now i'm watching the movie 9 months and talking to my cousin. but if i stay home tonight i will say that it will be the first time i think i'll be going to bed early...i am so tired and then i'll have a chance to catch up on my zzz's!! i just don't understand why i have been so tired lately or for the past 3 months now. omg its AW's 3 month anniversary gotta go congratulate the sisters lol. ah also we have our own myspace now...we are gonna make AW the next big thing in the world...i hope everyone is ready for that. well that's all for now on my end...i'm actually getting tired just sitting here writing this...i might take a nap or just pass out!!! well in any case ttyl!!!! tchuss!!!!!!!!

Hmmm.......

so it seems we have been m.i.a. from our blog for 20 days and that is just not kosher (lol)!!!! so lets see what has aw been up too lately...well for starters we can't wait for july to get here. i mean honestly can it be taking any longer to get here...the wait is killing us. and if u are wondering what's so important in july...well we'll FINALLY get to see each other in the flesh!!! our friendship has been based purely on a random poll, msn, aim, oovoo, facebook & anything that has to do with tokio hotel! did we mention how much we love them lol. and thats another thing we are also anxiously awaiting their new album...i don't think any of us have ever wanted an album to come out as bad as this one...YOU HEAR THAT TOKIO HOTEL WE WANT YOUR ALBUM NOW...BTW WIR LIEBE DICH VIEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! umm...if have also been busy trying to take over the world lol...we now have our own group in facebook & we have our own twitter page which is so geil!!!!!!!!!!!! um i think that's all for now if not we'll be back to keep updating you guys!!! talk to you later!!!!!!! bye!!!!!!!

Tokiohotialis

A strange and mysterious disease has recently been spotted all around the world. The Tokiohotialis seems to create am irrational obsession with the four boys that create the german band, Tokio Hotel. The symptoms include sweats, fainting spells and unholy obsession with certain body parts belonging to the four innocent boys. Sadly, there is no cure for the Tokiohotialis and its sub-ailments, the Billialis, the Tomtialis, the Georgialis and the Gustavialis...